April 29th, 2002

krazy kat

We sit outside and argue all night long About a God we've never seen but never fails to side with me

Wow. That was an... interesting experience I've just had. I can honestly say I've never been in that situation before.

(Unfortunately) I'm not sure I can come to grips enough to talk about it right now on here, so y'all are gonna have to wait in suspense until I wrap my head around it. If I ever do. Dammit, how the hell am I supposed to react to this...? Uh, say "no" I guess? But maybe I'm just scared? Hell YES, I'm scared! You're not supposed to ask that kind of question so soon, even if you ARE just joking!

Anyway. You don't know what I'm talking about, so I'll stop being cryptic.

There's this interesting web page I tripped across. Battleground God. No, it's not some whacked-out religious site or anything. It's sort-of a questionnaire that you can take, asking about various religious views (of yours), and analyzes them for self-consistency and whatnot. To see how well you've thought out the whole issue. I found it pretty cool. As far as I can tell, there's no bias (on the site) towards either a belief in God, or lack thereof... you can answer from either perspective and it's just as "levelheaded" (for lack of a better term).

I came through with no direct hits, but had to "bite the bullet" twice. Anyway, take it if you wanna, ignore it if you wanna. But I found it interesting.

So, what do you do when you just don't care anymore?

I'm referring to school, actually. Like, I seriously have a hard time caring. About anything. About my assignments, my classes. About waking up on time to make it to class. About handing in my assignments. About studying for exams. About grades. I could -- honestly speaking -- flunk out of every single class I'm taking right now, and I don't think I'd really care. What does it take to get you to feel again? Is this just burn-out? Already?


I'm scaring me. I'd give anything to care again.
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