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A day of goodbyes - MrPutter: doing things the hard way, because it is there.
May 19th, 2003
07:46 pm
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A day of goodbyes
Yesterday we went out to see X-Men 2. My birthday-cum-going-away party. The guys all chipped in and got me a gift certificate. New shoes, wo0t. Yeah, among other things. And 5 of us went to the movie... Anushka, Majed, Nitin, Naafii and yours truly. Fun movie, lots of explosions, somewhat forgettable plot; your standard action fare. Probably about right for the purpose. Then afterwards I went out for dinner with Majed and Ejaz (from Sharjah University; met him through the programming competitions). Loads of shawarmas! Yeah! Because I won't be getting many once I go back to Canada. So load up while I can, or something.

And then spent most of today saying goodbye. Last exams today, so a lot of people leaving this evening. Have to wonder where the time went. For ever and ever, the end of term has been several weeks away, and I had lots of time left. Then I was so busy trying to do my film project, then arrange things in Canada and with the administration...

And all of a sudden I turn around, and the exams are over, and half the people have gone and I missed my chance to say goodbye, and those that remain are leaving TODAY, dammit, and I have to scramble to find two minutes to say goodbye to any of them.

And I don't mind admitting that I'm not a little full of regret. I've lived in so many places before, moved around so much. With a few exceptions, I've never had one group of friends last more than a couple of years (then of course there are those with whom I have lost contact, only to later regain it, but that's a digression). I've gone through last goodbyes before. My life has been one series of last goodbyes after another.

And I thought I had become inured to it... typical blasé mrputter. Things become easier through repetition? Goodbye! I won't see you ever again! I don't care.

And now... I find... maybe I do care. I find... for maybe the first time... the goodbyes leave me empty afterwards.

Or maybe it's because I left things too late; and didn't really get to say goodbye to Nausheen.

Feeling a tad small?
Feeling a tad small?

Current Mood: regretful
Current Music: K's Choice -- Dad

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Date:May 19th, 2003 11:42 pm (UTC)
I don't know if it'll help, but maybe if you try to not think about the people you're leaving behind and instead think of the people you'll be seeing soon that you haven't seen in about 2 years? Maybe that will help to make things a bit easier?
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Date:May 20th, 2003 12:07 am (UTC)
Oh, that's cool.

Don't get me wrong, I am looking forward to it. I think I mainly regret all the people I didn't get to say goodbye to.
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Date:May 20th, 2003 12:17 am (UTC)

I think..

I think Minister is correct. There's no use dwelling on the negative aspects. Remember the good times you had with your friends and know that you'll be seeing people you haven't seen in a while again.

And yes, I expect you to notify me as soon as you get back. It'll be good to have ya back.

Good night.
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